Strange Pulse

I’m Susan. 37, married for 19 years, with three kids. A Mormon housewife into doom metal. And this is my blog.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Some favorite lyrics–short ones.

File under General, Music - by Susan M @ 11:00 pm

I’m a lyrics freak. For the longest time I could never understand people who say they never pay attention to song lyrics. How can you not? But in the last few years, as I’ve gotten into doom metal, and other types of music where you can’t really understand what the singer is saying, I’m starting to see how some people don’t care about lyrics.

Here’s some short lines I love.

In the battle of time in the battle of will
It’s only your hope and your heart that gets killed
— Patty Griffin, “Sweet Lorraine”

No apology is expected
Love carved sorry in his face
— Ben Harper, “The Woman in You”

Well this should cheer you up for sure
See, I found your old ID, and you’re all dressed up like the Cure
— Ben Folds Five, “Battle of Who Could Care Less”

Me and Timory holdin’ hands - I was shakin’ hers, ‘cause she said she was a fan.
There was an awkward pause, and something that should’ve began
Just passed us by.
But I watched her sing along with every word, in the prettiest voice that I never heard
And I still see her dancing, wearin’ my shirt: Right there.
— Ted Leo, “Timorous Me”

Where oh where can Jah love be now?
My dear, it’s here in the underground
Inside the hearts of your own children
In this house of suffering
— Bad Brains, “House of Suffering”

Questions upon question upon questions crowding round the side of my bed
Here are just a few of the best ones adrift in my head
Who’s driving this airplane? Did I live hard enough?
Is it gonna rain, and how well have I loved?
How well have I loved?
— Mike Scott (Waterboys), “Questions”

Time will come when we know what happened here
Change will come in time and make it clear
We learn one thing if we learn at all
In the secret wars we call our lives
Anything can happen
— Jackson Browne, “Anything Can Happen”

I’ll post the Bad Brains and Mike Scott songs to the radio.blog, top right.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Upcoming shows…and band pics.

File under General, Music - by Susan M @ 11:00 pm

I love it when bands contact me about my photos.

I just got a message via a music web forum from Pelican, asking if they could get high res photos of the pictures I took at their LA show. Of course you can!

I’ve got a bunch of shows coming up. I mean ones that I actually already have tickets for, and therefore will definitely be attending. (There’s more shows I’d like to go to but will probably miss.)

Friday Aug 26 - The New Pornographers.
Has to be the worst band name, ever. But Neko Case is in the band and I love her, so I’m going to check them out. It’s really close to home for me, at a great venue, so it’ll be nice.

Tuesday Sep 6 - Three Inches of Blood.
My husband’s favorite metal band. They’re really fun live. Just great guys, too. I’m not sure we’ll make it since it’s on a Tuesday, and it’s at the Whiskey, one of the worst venues around.

Thursday Sep 15 - New Model Army.
I LOVE these guys. They’re playing in LA. They’re playing the next night in Long Beach, which would be easier/closer for me, but Saturday is the festival:

Saturday Sep 17 - Live/Madness/Oasis/311/The Arcade Fire/Weezer.
A music festival back out in the desert. We’re only staying for half (that’s half the bands listed above–we’ll be missing a bunch more). Taking the kids.

Friday Sep 30 - The Frames.
One of the best live bands going. Seriously good. Can’t wait!

Tuesday oct 18 - Calexico and Iron & Wine.
I am so excited for this. I love Calexico and I’ve never seen them.

Friday, August 19, 2005

Ozzfest. Torturefest.

File under General, Music - by Susan M @ 11:00 pm

So, for some reason beyond my ken at this moment, I thought I could make it a whole day at Ozzfest, when I knew perfectly well I wouldn’t be able to make it a full day at the festival I’m taking my kids to next month.

It was hot. So hot. Unbearably hot. The venue is way up in the mountains of San Bernadino. My husband said it was probably in the 90’s, but I checked right now, and the current temperature there today is 100 degrees.

We didn’t bring sunscreen. We didn’t go for the expensive but close in parking–no, we parked about two miles away and walked in. And out.

Here’s a quick rundown.

At the second stage:

A Dozen Furies - don’t remember, low blood sugar.
Mastodon - awesome, clowns on stilts came out at the end, juggling knives.
As I Lay Dying - don’t remember, sun stroke.
Killswitch Engage - don’t remember, sun stroke.
Rob Zombie - dance metal?

At the main stage:

In Flames - Swedish.
Black Label Society - stacks and stacks and stacks and stacks of amps.

We bailed at that point and I thought I was going to puke walking the two miles back to our car in the heat.

But I did give our tickets to some teenage boys who were in a sucky spot.

And we saw Kelly Osbourne being shuttled somewhere on a golf cart.

I’m glad we didn’t pay for the tickets.

A few highlights:

  • The woman with the jeans shorts that were basically just a single thread. They were cut so short, they didn’t cover her butt cheeks, only her butt crack. Fortunately, she had the body to carry it off. It was really quite impressive. I told my husband it looked like if she bent over, her shorts would disintegrate with a little *poof*.
  • The woman who had a tattoo that made it look like she was wearing a sleeveless top. I thought it was at least rather unique. But then I got up closer and saw what the tattoo actually was–a naked woman with big breasts.
  • The woman who wasn’t wearing a top at all. Instead, she had her breasts painted–and tape over her nipples. She was all rainbow colored. I hope that paint had at least 30 SPF in it.
  • Did I mentioned the clowns on stilts juggling knives? (Mastodon’s latest video is full of crazy rather scary looking clowns.)
  • The slam pit. I didn’t get close enough to see the guys in it (and there was actually more than one going), but you could tell by the huge clouds of dust rising up in the air over the crowd that it had to be an intense one. Occasionally I’d see young guys heading out of the crowd covered in dirt and sweat, with bandanas over their mouths. Like cowboys.
  • Walking through the heavy metal parking lot on the way in, with all the metalheads bbqing on camping gear and tailgating (it really was just like the movie), when my husband said, “I wish I’d worn an Erasure t-shirt.”

I’m all sunburned, especially on my face. I look like I’ve been skiing. My Bishop came up to me at church today and asked how I got so sunburned. I told him we went to Ozzfest yesterday. He said, “Yeah? Did you see Black Sabbath?”

And I had to tell him no. Probably my only chance to see Black Sabbath and we blew it. We totally should’ve gotten there right at sundown and enjoyed the headliners. Oh well. I ended up getting a phone call last night from someone who really needed someone to talk to, and for that I’m glad we missed the rest of the show.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

\m/ I’m going to Black Sabbath tonight!

File under General, Music, Photography - by Susan M @ 11:00 pm

Speaking of devil music! (For those who don’t know, \m/ is an emoticon that represents the devil-horn symbol metalheads make with their hands.)

Ozzfest is today. My husband’s boss got us tickets. And I think they’re actually for seats, not just the outer lawn area. I never in my life thought I’d ever be able to see Black Sabbath–or Iron Maiden, who are also playing. I just don’t usually spend money on big shows.

Except I did spent $120 yesterday on tickets for another big festival, I’m taking my kids–and I did get tickets for the outer lawn area. It’s the Inland Invasion, and normally I never would’ve gone, but MADNESS is playing! Now, most people only remember Madness for their 80’s hit, “Our House,” and possibly their earlier ska classic, “One Step Beyond.” But when I was a teen, Madness was my older brother’s favorite band, and he had all their records, and I loved them all. (And there were a lot of them.) I never, EVER thought I’d be able to see Madness. Apparently they’re back together (did they break up? I don’t know) and have recorded an album of all covers. I’ve got it and it’s all very ska-sounding–their later stuff just turned into pop music, they lost the whole ska thing somewhere along the way. So I am really excited about seeing them. And I’m taking my kids because one of their favorites is also playing–311. Here’s the line up for the Inland Invasion:

* Beck
* Bloc Party
* Bravery
* Cake
* Garbage
* Jet

* Live
* Madness
* Oasis
* 311
* The Arcade Fire
* Weezer

Beck is headlining. I’m thinking we’ll leave after Live, because I don’t care about any of the bands after them except for Beck, and I don’t think me and the kids will last all day and all night on the grass.

The line up for Ozzfest today is:

BURY YOUR DEAD
WICKED WISDOM
GIZMACHI
SOILWORK
IT DIES TODAY
ARCH ENEMY
TRIVIUM
THE BLACK DAHLIA MURDER
THE HAUNTED
A DOZEN FURIES
MASTODON
AS I LAY DYING
KILLSWITCH ENGAGE
ROB ZOMBIE

IN FLAMES
BLACK LABEL SOCIETY
SHADOWS FALL
MUDVAYNE
SLIPKNOT
IRON MAIDEN
BLACK SABBATH

Of all the secondary bands, I really want to see Mastodon and As I Lay Dying. I’ve seen Mastodon a couple times already, they totally rule, and it’ll be really cool to see them at a huge festival like this.

My husband’s more of a traditional metalhead than I am–he loves the speed/thrash/power metal, I’m all about the slow/doom metal–so he’s going to be in heaven. Iron Maiden! Black Sabbath! Yes!

Mastodon:

Not sure yet if they allow cameras, but all I’d be able to get pictures of is a huge crowd, anyway.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

My Life as a Soundtrack Vol I, Track #11: Husker Du

File under General, Music - by Susan M @ 11:00 pm

“Could You Be the One”

(I actually used another Husker Du song for my mix cd, but only because I’d used this one already on a previous mix for my trading ring.)

This was my theme song for my junior year of high school. In fact I think it was the first song I ever considered to be a theme song. Since then, I’ve had many, and someday I’ll probably do a series of posts about all my “theme” songs.

I already wrote a big post for Kulturblog, here, about why I love Husker Du.

I never got to see them live, which is ridiculous, because according to my husband, they played Seattle so much when we were teens, he thought they were a local band. But I had trouble getting to shows because I couldn’t drive. Once I found out they were playing the morning of the show. I asked everyone I could think of at school if they were going, hoping to hitch a ride. No one was. Then I asked this one guy who was friends with my older brother, someone I’d always had a bit of a crush on. He said “Oh, they’re playing? Sure, I’ll take you.”

And I waited, and waited, and waited to be picked up for the show. He never came. He went to the show but forgot to take me along!

The band broke up shortly thereafter.

My husband still apologizes about that one.

Could You Be The One?
by Husker Du

Could you be the one they talk about?
Hiding inside, behind another door?
Is it only happiness you want?
Does wanting a feeling matter any more?

It doesn’t mean that much to me
Sometimes I don’t mean that much to you
And I don’t even know what I’m hiding for

And I don’t even know what I’m crying for
Don’t even know what I’m hiding for

Could you be the one they talk about?
Life is a game that only you can make
Maybe I’m about to throw it out
I’ve given it all, that’s all I can take

Could you be the one
Could you be the one
Could you be the one that’s hanging all around

Don’t even know what I’m hiding for
Don’t even know what I’m crying for
Don’t even know, but could you be the only
Broken hearted one

Could you be the one?

One of my favorite lines ever written: Is it only happiness you want? There’s so much more to experience.

Check it out in the radio.blog, top right of your screen.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

The Devil’s Music

File under General, Music, Photography - by Susan M @ 11:00 pm

When I was a kid, heavy metal in my family was considered the devil’s music. Mainly I think because my oldest brother listened to it, and he was incorrigible, put in a foster home, on drugs, selling drugs, probably in and out of juvie, etc. (I was raised Lutheran, not Mormon.) And I was a good kid, so I never listened to Kiss or AC/DC.

But when I got to be a teenager and discovered punk, I listened to Suicidal Tendencies and the Dead Kennedys. I also borrowed Megadeth and I think it was Slayer from my oldest brother. I wouldn’t call any of that music Satanic.

I just think it’s kinda funny that a lot of the music I listen to these days–doom metal, death metal, etc–to a lot of people would seem like really evil-sounding music. But I don’t hear it that way at all. A lot of the fans of this kind of music would say they listen to it because it’s dark, or agressive, an outlet for their own anger or aggression, etc.

But to me, it’s like pure audio sunshine. It makes me happy. And some of the stuff with the really growly, evil-sounding vocals, actually makes me laugh. I love it.

I think it’s funny also that I can put on something like High on Fire, or Electric Wizard, or Converge, and my kids don’t bat an eye. (And we can watch the live dvd that came with the latest High on Fire album and they think it’s cool that they can see me in the front row. Haha! What a dorky mom they have.)

I think it’s the audio processing disorder I have that makes me react to doom metal like I do. I think it’s something about the low frequency sound. But whatever, I love it. I’ll post a song from the latest High on Fire, and something by Electric Wizard. E Wiz’s songs tend to be really long so I’ll have to find a short one. Or maybe not. Maybe I’ll post a ten-minute one.

Here’s some pics of High on Fire that I took at the show where they filmed the live DVD.

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Why I don’t trust the news.

File under General - by Susan M @ 11:00 pm

I’ve witnessed a few horrible things. They pale in comparison to what a friend of mine who lived in NYC on 9-11-2001 has seen, and they’re nothing compared to things a lot of my family members have been through, but that’s another post.

Don’t read this if you’ve got your own traumatic memories you’d rather not revisit.

Once when I worked in downtown Seattle I was walking from a very upscale, skyscraper-area to where my office was located in Pioneer Square (also known as Park-Benches-for-the-Homeless-Town), and I was walking through an area I affectionately think of as Crackville (2nd Ave and Pike, or so). I went past a small parking garage, maybe three stories high, and there was a crowd of people gathered around, looking at the roof of it. That was when I noticed the sidewalk around it was roped off with police tape, and there was a body lying on the sidewalk covered in a white sheet. I saw a cop on the roof of the building. I didn’t stop to try to find out what happened–I just figured someone had jumped off the building or been pushed. I was almost as disturbed by all the people standing around staring as I was the fact that someone had died.

Once I was crossing a four-lane street at a T-intersection, and someone on the street I was walking along was turning left onto the street I was crossing, and would have hit me in the crosswalk, but instead they hit a motorcyclist who was coming at them head on. In their defense, it was rainy, and the motorcyclist had come around a car that had stopped in the street to pick someone up. I hid my face, but not before I managed to see the motorcycle hit the car and the rider go flying through the air. It was one of those slow-motion moments, like when I saw a big truck run over a dog, right in front of me. I was expecting him to be dead or all bloody, but fortunately he was fine. Or at least ok enough to get up and start cussing out the driver of the car. So I kept walking.

The worst, though, was when I saw a guy get killed with a skateboard. OK, I didn’t actually see it–I heard it.

My husband and I were in the U-District, on the Ave, in Seattle. He’d gone with me to some used music stores to browse for cds. We walked up to the intersection of 45th, trying to see if there was any stores past it we should check out. We were waiting for the light to change when we heard a loud *CRACK*. It sounded just like gunfire. (I’ve heard gunfire on city streets before, having lived in a gang neighborhood.) We looked across the street and I could see a man lying on the sidewalk–all I could see were his legs sticking out from a store entryway area. But my husband had seen him get hit–someone hit him over the head with a truck of a skateboard (the metal part with the big bolt, that holds the wheels on the board). Daniel saw it happen, and saw three guys ride away on skateboards.

The light hadn’t changed yet, but I immediately asked him if he had his cell phone, and he immediately ran across the street with it. The victim’s girlfriend was already on her cell calling 911. A cop just happened to be driving by and someone flagged him down. He pulled out his pad and started asking questions, and Daniel told him the guys who did it had just taken off down the street and around the corner, but he wouldn’t listen to him. I’d stayed on the other side of the street, as there were people all around and I wanted to stay out of the way. I also didn’t want to see any blood or gore. An ambulance just then happened to drive by and someone flagged it down as well. Daniel left when he realized the cop wasn’t going to do anything, and we went home.

I kept checking the news to see if the guy had lived. He did for a couple days, and I guess in the ambulance had said a few words, but quickly slipped into a coma. I was planning on bringing some flowers by the hospital he was in when I found out he’d died.

There were a lot of stories in news outlets about it, I followed it pretty closely online. And most of them were inaccurate. They did mention the guy’s family owning a Greek restaurant in Seattle, so I sent them a card. His mother ended up calling me, and that was the worst 30 minute conversation I’ve ever had. She was practically hysterical in her grief, and she wanted to know if we’d testify at the sentencing of the perpetrator–they caught the guy, and he pleaded guilty to some charge that would only give him a couple years in jail. The story as I know it was that he and two other guys were skating in the street and wouldn’t move for the victim’s car, and the victim got out of the car to argue with them, when the guy hit him over the head with his skateboard. The mother wanted me to say some words at his sentencing in the hopes that it would get him more jail time, I guess, but since I didn’t actually see anything, just heard it, I couldn’t. And my husband didn’t want to have anything to do with it.

She also wanted to hear all about everything that’d happened. I shouldn’t have told her anything, I guess, but I told her what I knew. It was horrible. She was so distraught.

I’ll never forget the sound that skateboard made against bone.

Friday, August 12, 2005

My Life as a Soundtrack Vol I, Track #10: Nick Drake

File under General, Music - by Susan M @ 11:00 pm

I have this theory about Nick Drake. I think he’s universally likeable. I just can’t imagine anyone not liking his music. It’s that good. And that appealing. And that compelling.

I first discovered him in my teen years thanks to my brother William, who I think discovered him from a penpal. However it happened, William bought a box record set of all his stuff (which is probably worth quite a bit of money today). Drake was a folk singer in the 60’s/70’s. Allmusic.com’s bio says it better than I ever could:

“A singular talent who passed almost unnoticed during his brief lifetime, Nick Drake produced several albums of chilling, somber beauty. With hindsight, these have come to be recognized as peak achievements of both the British folk-rock scene and the entire rock singer/songwriter genre.”

After my brother and I left home, and our music collection was separated (that was painful!), I forgot about Nick Drake. I got busy having babies and etc and basically dropped out of music (I’ll get to that in a later post, be patient). It wasn’t until I saw a VW car commercial that featured his song “Pink Moon” that I remembered him and got back into him. I’ll forever be thankful to VW for using that song. The same time that commercial was airing, his music started being used a lot in tv shows and movies, too, and there was a resurgence of interest in his stuff.

He died young. The official ruling was suicide, but he didn’t leave a note, and his family thinks it was accidental. He was on medication for depression, and they say he didn’t know that the med was lethal in a higher dose. I don’t really care whether his death was suicide or accident, it’s tragic and sad and I miss him every time I think of him.

I’m going to break with tradition and post more than one song by him. The song I used on my mix cd is “One of These Things First.” But I have to post more than just one.

So tell me what you think, if you’ve never heard him before, or if you have. Check him out in the radio.blog, top right.

Friday, August 12, 2005

Biblical references in songs.

File under General, Music - by Susan M @ 11:00 pm

I’m trying to think of bands that have Biblical references in their songs.

U2’s music, of course, is full of them. I think my favorite, besides the obvious “40″ (based on Psalm 40), is “Until the End of the World,” which at first glance doesn’t seem biblical at all. But one interpretation of it is that it was written about the betrayal of Christ, from Judas’s point of view. Read an explanation here.

Indigo Girls also have a lot, but one of them is the daughter of a preacher, I’m pretty sure. My two favorites would have to be “Let It Be Me” and “The Wood Song.” The latter uses Noah’s ark as a metaphor

The Wood song

The thin horizon of a plan is almost clear,
my friends and I have had a tough time
bruising our brains hard up against change;
all the old dogs and the magician

Now I see we’re in the boat in two-by-twos,
only the heart that we have for a tool we could use
and the very close quarters are hard to get used to;
love weighs the hull down with it’s weight

But the wood is tired, and the wood is old,
and we’ll make it fine, if the weather holds.
But if the weather holds, we’ll have missed the point;
that’s where I need to go.

No way construction of this tricky plan
was built by other than a greater hand
with a love that passes all our understanding
watching closely over the journey, yeah

But what it takes to cross the great divide
seems more that all the courage I can muster up inside.
But we get to have some answers when we reach the other side
The prize is always worth the rocky ride.

But the wood is tired, and the wood is old,
and we’ll make it fine, if the weather holds.
But if the weather holds, we’ll have missed the point;
that’s where I need to go.

Sometimes I ask to sneak a closer look;
skip to the final chapter of the book
and then maybe steer us clear from some of the pain it took
to get us where we are this far.

But the question drowns in it’s futility,
and even I have got to laugh at me.
No one gets to miss the storm of what will be
just holding on for the ride.

But the wood is tired, and the wood is old,
and we’ll make it fine, if the weather holds.
But if the weather holds, we’ll have missed the point;
that’s where I need to go.

One of my favorite doom metal bands, High on Fire, has some biblical references in their lyrics. And I heard somewhere their name was taken from the Book of Revelation, but if that’s true, I’m not sure what translation it is. Their song Blood From Zion is probably the best example.

There was more I wanted to write but lack of sleep makes my brain foggy. Can you think of any? Even just U2 songs if you’re lazy.

I’ll post “The Wood Song” to the radio.blog, top right.

EDIT: I just remembered another song I wanted to post.

Praying Arm Lane by Sixteen Horsepower

well hey i been down that a way
with a dream on my arm
yet me an’ my love we could not stay
we heard voices of children
an’ by little hands were led astray

all the boughs bend for us
all the earth awaits thee
all the stones they will cry out
an’ ev’ry tongue confess thee

oh my dream come an’ take me quickly
‘fore the struggle take me
yeah lay me down any way you choose
an’ let the voices of our children wake me

the boughs they all will bend for us
an’ all the earth awaits thee
all the stones they will cry out
yes an’ ev’ry tongue confess thee

an’ though the word yes
it falls on deaf ears
it is spoken jus’ the same
the word it stands
look straight at ev’ry man
from kings down to the lay

well i told it fast an’ glad
the color of a sloe drink
or so they say
so they say by the light of day
hidden ‘neath their wings
of black, brown an’ grey

the boughs they all will bend for us
an’ all the earth awaits thee
all the stones they will cry out
an’ ev’ry tongue confess thee

an’ though the word yes
it falls on deaf ears
it is spoken jus’ the same
the word it stands
look straight at ev’ry man
from kings down to the lay

Sixteen Horsepower were a Christian band, they recently broke up because of religious differences.

Check it out in the radio.blog.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Temple open house…and 11 year olds.

File under General, Photography, Conversations - by Susan M @ 11:00 pm

My church is building a new temple about 20 minutes away from us. I don’t think I’ve ever lived so close to one before–well except for when we lived in Hawaii, but the entire island is only about 20 miles across at it’s widest span!–and it’s awesome to have one so nearby. They’re having a month long open house, with constant daily tours. They said they’re moving about 8,000 people through each day, which is pretty remarkable. It starts out in the stake center next door (a regular chapel) with a short video introduction, then a couple tour guides take you through the temple one room at a time.

Based entirely on photos, the San Diego temple has always been my favorite:


(Photo taken from here.)

It’s just so crazy and dramatic looking.

The Newport Beach temple isn’t like that at all.

You can see a couple more photos I took when it was being built on my old blog here. Or you can see photos a professional took, including shots of the interior, here.

I think this is going to be my new favorite temple. It’s not much to look at from the outside, but it’s a smaller one, and that gives it a real feeling of coziness and intimacy. You don’t feel intimidated, like you’ll get lost if you take a wrong turn. Everything’s on one floor, but the elevation between rooms (symbolic for your eternal progression) does change slightly. It’s more effective, because it’s different–makes you think about it more. (The hallways between rooms have slight ramps.)

The tour itself didn’t seem that special, the tour guides explained things but nothing they said was especially moving. But the Spirit was really strong there. My husband, who hasn’t gone to the temple in years, said he’d like to try going again.

My kids both brought non-member friends. My youngest brought his friend who has often gone to church with us. When we first got in line for the tour and a sister Missionary was handing out pamphlets with photos of the new temple, my son said to her, “I’m a missionary!”

Before going to the temple we’d gone out for lunch, and he and his friend sat at a separate table. I heard him explaining to his friend how we believe in a pre-existence. He said, “A long time ago we were just spirits. And then–OUR MINDS GOT ERASED.” Haha.

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