Strange Pulse

I’m Susan. 37, married for 19 years, with three kids. A Mormon housewife into doom metal. And this is my blog.

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

My music obsessions.

File under General - by susanstrange @ 6:06 pm

Besides Jackson Browne, lately I’ve been obsessed with Ted Leo. I only recently discovered him. When I first heard him I didn’t think he was that great. But since I felt that way about Jackson at first, too, I never go by first impressions. I listened to Ted until he clicked. And click-clickity-click he did.

I don’t even know what it is about him that I love so much. His songs are really catchy and rather hyper–he reminds me of Joe Jackson on speed. He packs a billion words into each song. There are many many songs I haven’t read the lyrics to yet, so I still have hours of joyful discovery in front of me–because everytime I finally figure out what he’s saying in a song, I end up listening to it on repeat for a couple hours until I can sing along with everyone of the billion words.

His lyrics are really great too. One of my favorite things about his most recent album, Shake the Sheets, is how the first line is “I was walking through a life one morning,” and the last line on it is “There’s a whole lot of walking to do.”

Some of my favorite lines:

What`s eating you alive might help you to survive
- “Me and Mia”

Cigarettes and speed to live, and sleeping pills to feel forgiven
- “Me and Mia”

Fighting for the smallest goal: to get a little self-control
- “Me and Mia”

Do you believe in something beautiful?
Then get up and be it
- “Me and Mia”

I want to take you to a quiet place, and never ask the meaninglessness to reply.
- “Shake the Sheets”

I’ve posted some songs to the radio.blog on the right sidebar.

Sunday, May 29, 2005

Doom metal and dorkiness.

File under General - by susanstrange @ 7:19 pm

I saw two of my favorite doom metal bands last night, High on Fire and Graves at Sea. High on Fire have been around awhile and tour relentlessly. This is the 6th time I’ve seen them. Graves at Sea I’ve seen twice before. They’re from Arizona, which always trips me out, because you just don’t expect that level of doom to come from such a sunny, dry place.

I recently posted about meeting bands on a music web forum I frequent. I was looking for advice on how to approach them. I was thinking in terms of bands that are more well known and get people wanting to meet them all the time. I’m no good at approaching people. It’s bad enough when you dork out over a popular band. But when you dork out over meeting a doom metal band that doesn’t even have more than a demo out, man, is that dorky.

I went to the merch table to buy a cd from Graves at Sea, cuz I thought they had a new album out. But it turns out they don’t, still just the demo, which I already have. So I bought a t-shirt. I don’t wear band t-shirts, especially black ones. But I wanted to help support their trip back to Arizona–I try to buy merch from these small bands that have to pay out of their own pocket to get from place to place. The singer was very friendly and super nice. He said, “Let’s see, it looks like you’d wear a small, maybe a medium?” and I thought, “Either he can’t see how fat I am, or he’s trying to make me feel good.” It worked. I told him I wanted a large and he didn’t believe me at first. Maybe he just was running low on larges and wanted to get rid of some smaller shirts. But I didn’t want to tell him the t-shirt wasn’t for me, because it probably would’ve come out something like, “Uh, you really think I’m going to wear a black t-shirt with corpses and skeletons on it? I’ll give it to my husband or my son.”

I ended up getting one with a lovely picture of a woman, almost looks like a portrait of the Madonna. It’s only when you look closely that you realize the locksy curls of hair she has are snakes.

Anyway, it’s bad enough to dork out over meeting a band who is popular. But I dorked out over a doom metal band only a handful of people have even heard of. But honestly, they rule.

Graves at Sea:

High on Fire:

There were a couple pro photographers there.

I really needed that doom fix. Awesome night.

More pics and some videoclips here:

http://qsysue.tagplazen.org/shows/hof/5-28-05/

I’ll post a song by each on the radio.blog to the right.

Friday, May 27, 2005

More reasons I love Jackson Browne.

File under General - by susanstrange @ 8:21 am

Time will come when we know what happened here
Change will come in time and make it clear
We learn one thing if we learn at all
In the secret wars we call our lives
Anything can happen

“Anything Can Happen”

How long have I been sleeping
How long have I been drifting alone through the night
How long have I been running for that morning flight
Through the whispered promises and the changing light
Of the bed where we both lie
Late for the sky

“Late For The Sky”

Keep a fire for the human race
Let your prayers go drifting into space
You never know what will be coming down
Perhaps a better world is drawing near
And just as easily it could all disappear
Along with whatever meaning you might have found
Don’t let the uncertainty turn you around
(The world keeps turning around and around)
Go on and make a joyful sound

“For A Dancer”

I’d try to put it into words, but I could never say it as well as Bruce Springsteen did when he inducted Jackson into the Rock’n'Roll Hall of Fame. Here’s what he said:

“I first met Jackson Browne in the early seventies. It was at the
Bitter End. I was brought down there by David Blue, a folk singer,
after a set I did at Max’s Kansas City. On David Blue’s word, Jackson
was kind enough to let somebody he’d just met get up on stage and
play a song during his set. I watched Jackson play. That night he was
accompanied by his great sideman, David Lindley. As I listened that
night I knew that this guy was simply one of the best. Each song was
like a diamond and my first thought was ‘damn, he’s good.’ My second
thought was ‘I need less words.’

….

It’s true that Jackson wrote some of the most beautiful breakin’ up
music, break your heart music of all: Sky Blue and Black, Linda
Paloma, In The Shape of a Heart. I think that what drew women to
Jackson, besides the obvious, was that they finally felt they were
listening to a guy who knew as much about love as they did. And what
drew men to Jackson, besides the obvious, I guess, was that when they
listened to him, they realized they knew more about love than they
thought they did.

In seventies, post-Vietnam America, there was no album that captured
the fall from Eden, the long, slow after-burn of the sixties; it’s
heartbreak, it’s disappointments, it’s spent possibilities better
than Jackson’s masterpiece, Late For the Sky. It’s just a beautiful
body of work. It’s essential in making sense of the times. Before the
Deluge still gives me goosebumps and it raises me to cause. Late For
the Sky, when those car doors slam at the end of the record, they
still bring tears. And there was no more searching, yearning, loving
music made for and about America at the time.

In this and so much of Jackson’s writing, the slow meticulous
crafting of the songs, the thoughtfulness. Jackson was one of the
first songwriters I met who demonstrated the value of thinking hard
about what you were saying, your subject. The Pretender, These Days,
For Everyman, I’m Alive, Fountain of Sorrow, Running on Empty, For a
Dancer, Before the Deluge, now, I know the Eagles got in first, but,
let’s face it, and I think Don Henley would agree with me, these are
the songs they wish they’d written. I wish I’d written them myself,
along with Like A Rolling Stone and Satisfaction.

But, uh, Jackson’s influence and his voice has always been his own.
He’s one of the true activist musicians I’ve ever known. World In
Motion, Looking East, Lives In the Balance, he followed his muse
wherever it took him. Risked his, and he paid whatever the cost. He’s
long put his mouth, his money, and his body where his politics are.
Lives In The Balance sounds more urgent today than it ever did.

The Beach Boys and Brian Wilson, they gave us California as paradise
and Jackson Browne gave us Paradise Lost. Now I always imagine, what
if Brian Wilson, long after he’d taken a bite of that orange the
serpent offered to him, what if he married that nice girl in Caroline
No, I always figured that she was pregnant anyway, and what if he
moved into the valley and had two sons? One of them would have looked
and sounded just like Jackson Browne. Cain, of course, would have
been Jackson’s brother in arms, Warren Zevon. We love ya, Warren.
But, Jackson to me, Jackson was always the tempered voice of Abel.
Toiling in the vineyards, here to bear the earthly burdens,
confronting the impossibility of love, here to do his father’s work.
Jackson’s work was really California pop gospel.

Listen to the chord changes of Rock Me On the Water and Before the
Deluge, it’s gospel through and through. Now I always thought that in
our fall from Eden, besides the strains of physicality and the
bearing of earthly burdens, our real earthly task was that an
unbridgeable gap, or a black hole was opened up in our ability to
truly love one another. And so our job here on earth, the way we
regain our divinity, our sacredness, and our general good-standing is
by reconstructing love and creating love out of the broken pieces
that we’ve been given. That’s all we have of human promise. That’s
the way we prove ourselves in the eyes of God and facilitate our own
redemption. Now, to me Jackson Browne’s work was always the sound of
that reconstruction. So as he writes in The Pretender: We’ll put our
dark glasses on, and we’ll make love until our strength is gone, and
when the morning light comes streamin’ in, we’ll get up and do it
again. Amen.

Ladies and gentlemen, please join me in welcoming my very handsome
friend, Jackson Browne into the Rock ‘n’ Roll Hall of Fame.”

Friday, May 20, 2005

E3!

File under General - by susanstrange @ 6:33 am

Been busy with my new job, but I got to go to E3 this week, one of the perks! It was awesome. (Videogaming industry convention)

This is the staircase walking in.

The displays are insane.

Destroy All Humans!

Xbox display.

Zombie lady.

Don`t remember what game this was, but the gore and body parts were really cool.

It was packed.

Anyone have a PSP?

More if you visit my Flickr page: http://www.flickr.com/photos/whenigodeaf/

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Jackson Browne.

File under General - by susanstrange @ 7:03 am

He’s playing the day after my birthday, a benefit for the Santa Monica school district’s music program. It’s only $40, and he’s performing at the high school. I can’t believe I don’t have a ticket yet, am I insane? I’ll order one soon. Being able to see Jackson Browne perform more often was a big reason I wanted to move to California. (Actually, I day dreamed about meeting him on the beach, and becoming friends, and hanging out with his artist wife…Too much information?)

Here’s why I love Jackson Browne.

I want to live in the world, not inside my head
I want to live in the world, I want to stand and be counted
With the hopeful and the willing
With the open and the strong
With the voices in the darkness
Fashioning daylight out of song
And the millions of lovers
Alive in the world

I want to live in the world, not behind some wall
I want to live in the world, where I will hear if another voice should call
To the prisoner inside me
To the captive of my doubt
Who among his fantasies harbors the dream of breaking out
And taking his chances
Alive in the world

To open my eyes and wake up alive in the world
To open my eyes and fully arrive in the world

With its beauty and its cruelty
With its heartbreak and its joy
With it constantly giving birth to life and to forces that destroy
And the infinite power of change
Alive in the world

To open my eyes and wake up alive in the world
To open my eyes and fully arrive in the world
To open my eyes and wake up alive in the world
To open my eyes and fully arrive in the world

“Alive in the World”

Monday, May 2, 2005

Basic Pool Skate Party

File under General - by susanstrange @ 6:07 pm

This weekend Daniel took me and the boys to a skate contest in someone’s backyard. The guy who used to own Basic Skateboards has an empty swimming pool in his backyard where they occasionally hold skate contests. He’s moving, so they had one last party/contest before the pool is no longer open for skating.

There were such good skaters there. Benji Galloway was my favorite, and Jay Adams, an old school guy from the Dogtown days. It was really incredible. So much more fun to watch skating in a pool than on a ramp–you’re above everything, and the airs people pull are right in front of your face!

There were bands playing (don`t know who–punk rock) and pros doing a snake session–whatever you call it, a contest where it`s like a free for all and whoever can grab a run just does it. Most of my pictures didn’t turn out so hot, but here’s a few.

None of my shots of Jay Adams really came out that great, but I got a few good ones of guys bailing:

This one guy got on top of the house and tried to drop in from the roof–just insane. He didn`t make it:

Here’s Benji Galloway. He and Jay were both pulling big air tricks. Sometimes, he`d go switchfoot and do these really incredible tricks, it was so rad.

Here’s Jay Adams:

There were lots of cameramen there, shooting it for FUEL tv (I assume):

This is why we moved to Cali! Elijah didn’t want to be there–all the cigarette smoking was bothering him, and we had to get to a movie, so we couldn’t stay for all of the finals. On the way home Elijah was complaining about it and Daniel said, “Yeah, well I had to make you go. Because when you’re my age, you’ll tell someone, ‘When I was a kid, I went to the last skate contest at the Basic Pool,’ and they’ll say, ‘No way!’ And you’ll say, ‘Yeah. My Dad made me go.’”